My Huckleberry Finn
My Brother
Please forgive me
Don’t think I can stand up today
My body so weak with words I cannot say
Regret, how it becomes the memories we neglect
I miss our conversations be they so far in day
No foolish pride to be my resolute
When I see myself become the worst excuse
No friends left to pull away this recluse
Cursing down every cloud we tried to drown
Staring into the lake
Watching eyes close with her princess crown
Help me dear Brother
I lost myself again this day
How I miss the love of our Mother
Her spirit still speaks to us in the thunder
Do you think she will be proud of me some day
Always will I try and be your keeper
With secrets we never need say
Behind you to wickets in every step
I lost my favourite glove again today
Hold me dear Brother
What words we spoke above a grave
Digging away our better years
Just to stare with no words to say
Come so far from crashing cars
Still can I hear her drowning lungs like it was yesterday
Always shall it be with me, this anchor
Dragging it down the dark hallway
How the dread of Father becomes our fear
The terror I see in nightmares he holds dear
Hide with me under the bed with Mothers prayer
Close our eyes and take us back to the town fare
Help me dear Brother
My heart has fallen to pieces again this day
I wore my best smile but she won’t even look my way
Fractured cuts be so deep, no more can I hide this pain
I keep threading it together but life just throws me away
Happier I be in thought of sunny days
By that river where we fish forever
With no need of any word to complain
Home with nice biscuits where our love keeps us sane
These troubled times, no sowing heard again in that place
Save me dear Brother
These sad thoughts will never leave me alone
I can't sleep anymore with that screaming
Always to bare scars of this broken phone
Her glass jar of broken hearts so full of tears
Why won't she give me back these lost years
Fingerpaint our pain as ink upon our sleeves
No butterfly in caged misery to set me free
I keep cutting it away, why won't it ever leave me
Stand with me my Brother
When it's time to drag myself into the rain
Hammers that beat my fist to chest
Come see the lightning run through my veins
Still do I think of our friends lost to yesterday
Their souls circle through my blood down this drain
Will they return to show me no shame
Holding me as I scream for Father to go away
For you my one true Brother
Never did I want to be of any bother
Always the best of us with all those smarts
Spread those arms like the plane we couldn’t start
A spoonful of ashes to memories we called a friend
Losing all we loved to addictions of death
This letter be words kept that my heart never said
Remind me to find your birthday text I forgot to send
Don’t let one tear fall for me this day my brother
Love to never leave me again as I sit by our Mother
At your side in every fight no matter how far
Always with you, my only true brave heart